I have been having a really rough month. My mom and I have went through so much. Friends, school and everything has bothered me. so i was at the point where i had nothing left to offer. so i cried. and i sat on my bed and talked to God. For the first time in quite a while. I had said that i give up. i dont know what he wants to do with me. i dont know what how to react. i give up. that if he still loved me and wanted me then PLEASE show me a sign. something. something that i would notice.
well. i wanted to go to the Gauntlet this year. but there was no way i could go because of the money issues. the next day i had gotten a text from FUSE* saying that there was going to be a drawing and that whoseever name they pulled out would get this free scholarship thingy that they could give it to someone who wasnt able to go due to shortage of money. So i know that Kirstie doesnt win things. so i threw that out o my mind. like. well that wont be me getting that scholarship.
At FUSE* at the end of the service they drew out the name KIRSTIE LORENTZ. i could not believe it. i was so shocked. and she was too. i was so happy. and she told me that she was giving it to me. I was so freaking happy. and excited. like. im going on the Gauntlet. 
God gave me a sign. he gave me a sign that told me he was still here. and he always has been. i feel like he is making me go on the Gauntlet to blow my mind. i can feel it. i cant wait to see what God has to tell me at the Gauntlet this year. im really excited about it all. and even more excited that i now KNOW he will always be here. no matter what happens.
-Megan
